How Sick Am I Really?

Every pregnancy I ask myself the same question about 2 or 3 months into things. Do you really feel as lousy as you think you do? Or are you just being a baby? being selfish and trying to get yourself a break? And then after I have the baby, I realize that I was indeed feeling lousy, because I can feel the difference so quickly.

Right now, I feel sick. I feel tired and devoid of energy and drive. Later I feel sore. My feet go numb when I get one minute into my prayers. My back aches (and aches for another good rub).

It's okay. I'm getting used to it. I feel sick and tired and a little bit guilty when I do. If women could cross the plains, feed their families, run a farm and tend to all the work all through pregnancy, what am I doing on the couch? Well, if a woman could sit on the couch and still have dinner, clean kids and clothes, I'm guessing she would have.

At least that is what I'm telling myself for the next 6 months.

Headaches

I've been getting regular headaches. They aren't severe, but they hurt and just won't go away. I'm at a loss about what to do. I don't remember getting them like this before. Doesn't it seem that after 5 pregnancies, I should have it down, that I should just be able to have the same old each time?

Does life ever work that way?